For you, I will.

There's so many things I wish you knew.

2011-06-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I think to myself, what/how do you think of me?

Not like pretty, hot etc. Something more depth.

Like, what am I to you? Am I important? And how important? Am I better than all your previous girlfriends? What do you see in me?

There are alof of questions I want to ask, but it seems so... fairytalistic. Something you wouldn't want to answer.

I silently wished that you would see what I see in you, maybe you do, but I wished I knew.

You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Your presence can't be measured by importance. You just have to be there, you NEED to be there. I want you to be there, for me. You are the very first one that I want to be serious about, you are incomparable. I can't imagine if one day you just suddenly vanished, what will I do. It's beyond imagination, because I don't wish for that to happen. I want you with me, for as long as forever can last. I want to know how you feel about me, badly.

Do I play a part in your everyday life? Do you want me to be in your life? Have I made an impact to your life? Do you need me there like I need you to be here with me? I just want to know how you feel about me.

You just seem so much happier last time. Is like, I'm here to make your life miserable. Are you happy with me? Or do I just make your life worse? I want to know.

Because I'm happy when with you, I love the way I am when I'm with you, the way that nobody sees it other than you, and I love YOU. You came into my life, brighten it up. I don't know if I did the same to your's. And I wish I knew.

But at the same time, I don't want you to know that I'm asking for all these. I just think that you won't like it if I start shooting these questions at you. I just have this feeling that you won't like it.

But I love you.

I just wish we can go on forever. I didn't believe in forever, even now. I tried my best to believe in your forever, but I'm just afraid I will fall, real hard. I still have my guard up, but not too high for now.

I just want and need to be with you.

I love you baby boy, I can't do anything without you. I know this sounds cliche but it's from the bottom of my heart.

I wish you knew, because it's so hard for me to keep this inside me.

Dearest you.

2011-04-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

Words can’t describe how much I love you. (:
I’ve got so many things to say to you, but I just don’t have the courage to. I keep thinking that you won’t like it. That’s why sometimes, I cry, cry real hard.
It’s been nearly three months, and we’ve been through ’ quite’ alot. Thanks for being so understanding and not getting angry with me all the time. Your patience is something that can neutralise my personality, and hopefully I won’t run your patience out. =X
I really love you, I really do.
You say you love me more, but I guess I love you more than you love me. But I do feel love from you, all the time. (:
I realised I’m clingy. =/ the moment we part, I miss you already. Whenever I hug you, I don’t wanna let go. I can just fall asleep on you. (: Your kisses and hugs make me feel loved, and naturally I become like a small girl again. =X
Sorry for my stupid attitude sometimes, I don’t know how to stand it. =/ Thanks for being so tolerent.
I’m very glad to have you with me, really really. It’s beyond words, but there are so much more that I wanna say.
I love you baby boy, and I know, you love me too.
That enough can make me happy, for as long as I can be. (:
XOXO

Letter to me

2011-03-11T00:07:00.002+08:00

I really hate what the both of us are going through right now.

If I had insist on you not taking up your attachment, it would have been so much better. But I know I won't restrict you in whatever you do. I can't bear to.

And now, I'm here, sitting down in front of my laptop, typing this shit. While you are sleeping, not because you are tired, but you have to. I gave in, I don't want you to end up being tired when you're in the midst of your work. This wouldn't have happened if you are not on your attachment.

"I hate your attachment, I hate how you like your job so much."

But no, this is not what I'm thinking now. I just hate the fact that, I can't be with you as much, when is like, we are suppose to be with each other more now than any other time of the year.

You can't text during your work. No texting. When you are awake and on your way to work, I'm sleeping. No texting. When you end your work. You texted, with slow reply and stupid content. Not enough. And sometimes when you end work, I'm working. Pathetic. When I end work, you have to sleep. Not enough textings.

You get 2 off days per week. They are on 2 consecutive days. That will mean we can't see each other for at least 5 days. I hate this.

Time and time again, I miss you like crazy. I hate myself for being so attach to you. I thought I will handle this well, but no. All I have been doing is crying myself to sleep, thinking to myself in my own world, nobody can reach me.

You asked me, why was I so cold.
To make myself feel better. To pretend that I don't really need you here with me all the time.

I was wrong.

I can't pretend that I don't need you here. I can't pretend that I'm alright for you to sleep while I am just on my way home. I can't pretend that I don't give a shit if you can't text me enough.

I can't pretend that I don't love you as much as I really do.

In fact, I love you till I can't handle all these myself.

Sometimes I ask myself, if I'm giving too much.

But no, to think back, you gave more than you should when you shouldn't. That's how you got my heart.

I feel like I'm getting depressed day by day this holiday. It's the worse holiday ever.

I miss you, baby. I really do.
You won't read this, because if you do, you will start putting up your guard and avoid all these as much as you can. And I don't want that.

I'm not here to change or restrict you, I'm here to be with you, stand by you, watching you do what you like, what you think it's right.

I don't need you to apologise, because it's not your fault. You didn't expect things to turn out this way too. In fact, I think I'm the problem. I think too much.

I think to myself, if this goes on for too long, will we drift apart? Will we end up with nothing? I'm tired to chase you everyday, catching you when you are finally free to text me. I just want more time to be spent with you. But at the same time, it's tiring too. Is like, we both have our own lives to live, yet we want to be in each other's life.

I hate myself for always wanting you to be here but I have to let go because it will be better for you. For thousands of times, I wished you would text me back when I say good bye or good night, saying that you miss me and don't want to stop texting. But it's always so disappointing. You will only do that when I sound wrong.

Wanting and not wanting you to be here at the same time, this feeling sucks. I want to be selfish, but part of me thinks that I should just give in. I just can't bring myself to be ignorant and just go with whatever I want. I don't want to be like a little kid. I just can't bring myself to demand what I want. Yes, I can ask you to stay awake and text with me but I won't.. Yes, I can make you choose between me and your attachment, but I won't. I don't want you to make choices, I know you hate it. Most of all, I know you will choose me over anything that is why, I won't do all these. I don't want you to give up the things you enjoy for me. It's not worth it. You may think otherwise but really, I don't want to be someone who takes away your life.

April 6th please come quick, I want this to end, so that I can get back to the usual days, where we can just sit at home and chat whole day long. I missed you enough, I don't wanna go though missing you anymore. It's hurting way too much.

I love you, please stay with me, as long as you can be.

twenty ten

2011-01-01T01:54:00.002+08:00

Short reflection of 2010.

1. Turned 18.
Bball clique w their lovely surprises, miss them alot. Poly clique w their Swensens surprises, love them loads too.

2. Marlar.
Time again, history repeated. And us praying, hoping one day you would change. But I guess, that is not gonna happen in the near future.

3. Yami Yogurt.
Finally got myself a job after a year of jobless-ness. Enjoyable crew, had fun when I'm with them, except for one, or TWO. Glenn Melissa Amanda are the awesome peeps.

4. Brenda.
New BFF? Miss this girl, haven't met for like, a month? Felt like years. We can talk anything, and seriously everything under the sun. Starbucks is our favourite place so far, we can't afford to walk around, we spend way too much, on food that is.

5. IKEA.
Meatballs @ 4 bucks till July 2011. Three cheers!!

6. Achievements.
I wouldn't say I have, neither would I say I don't have. Looking around at my room, finally got my own bookshelf, a decent study table, cool pencil case, using a planner like finally, colourful own-made timetable, loving it. Just maybe wanna bring it to another level, with my personality as decorations.

7. Wedding.
Attended a wedding finalyl after 8 long years. Enjoyed it alot, still hate abalone. I'm not having shark fin on my wedding dinner, I swear.

8. Lastly, you.
We knew each other's existence for a year plus. Who would have thought we will end up like this? Thank you for being there when I'm always down, thank you for your patience with my stupid behaviours, thank you for loving me when I was still in doubts with my feelings for you, thank you for letting me love you even when I treated you that way before, thank you for showering your love all the time, thank you for being here by my side, thank you for making me happy, thank you for letting me know you, thank you for all that you've done. I love you, and hopefully, you love me the same way as I do to you.

Let's see what will 2011 be like, cheers to new beginnings, more happiness and maybe a little bit more cashy? =X

Daddy & Mummy, this is for you.

2010-03-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

So many times I've thought of becoming rebellious, but the thought of my parents unable to sleep when I'm out late, and whenever they hear the keys, the wake up to see if it was me. It's heartaching.

I want to have fun, but I want to be a filial daughter too. Why can't they just trust me a little more? Do I really have to resort to what my friends do: Just be rebellious until the day they give up telling you to come home on time.

I don't wanna do that, it's gonna hurt them I swear. Is it that difficult to gain people's trust? Even from the closest persons? I'm not old but I'm really not young anymore. I know this is freakin childish. But why can other parents trust their kids so much and yet mine are so conservative? Is it smth to do w where they were brought up? Is it because they really think too much? Some of my friends tell me is because their parents are really too busy to care about them. Does that mean my parents are too free to the extent that they have time to think so much? These two days I've been thinking to myself, what are the things that are stopping them from trusting me. Is it because I'm a girl? Is it because I look like I'm some kind of stupid bitch that hangs around w weird/playful/dangerous people? Like hello, my friends are not dangerous at all. My parents has always been unhappy about me being in bball, but don't they want to see a happy me?

I really wish they can read what my mind has been going through all this time. I've never thought of going home after 12 because by then there will be no bus (except for NR), I never dare to drink outside of my house. What we do is just sitting down and just mingle around, why can't they just see me doing that and nothing else? Really, I don't understand what is going on. Is it true that parents always think too much? My dad say I'll understand once I become a parent. Hopefully I will and put myself in my children's shoes too. It's not time to be 墨守成規, why can't my parents be more flexible?

I really hope my parents would read this. And hopefully, they will understand more about what I'm really thinking. I know this is being very childish of me, but I really can't take it anymore, I need a breather.

Thanks bloggie, I love you.

And to my readers, shut the fuck up and dont come and tell me bullshits, I don't need your comments about this. Why can't I password this post god damn it.

thirty-two more

2009-12-14T00:57:00.001+08:00

I'm not done,

so good luck.

I never wanted this

2009-12-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

but am I left with a choice?!

AGE IS JUST A NUMBER BABY

2009-12-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

I type a whole load of crap but I just selected all and pressed "Backspace". It's boring, trust me. But anyway Taylor Lautner is sexy ttm, he's 9 days younger than me, his muscles are not intimidating, his nose and eyes are starstrucking...

MY WISH FOR TODAY: DREAM OF HIM IN MY SLEEP TONIGHT.

Some bedtime reading and off to bed! Need to get my routine fixed.

I'm motivated somehow.

I hate days like these

2009-12-06T23:38:00.003+08:00

There's seriously something wrong with my sleeping habit.

Not that I wanna sleep late, but whenever I try to sleep early, I will usually oversleep.

And that cause me to rush through my routines which I don't really adore, cos' yeah, I hate rushing.

AND sleeping early does not keep me awake in class.

In fact, I'll die off after the second period. Yes, THAT BAD.

These things do not happen when I sleep late; I wake up early, I can dilly-dally, I stay awake throughout the whole day, the feeling was so... ACCOMPLISHED.

You know, the feeling of "not lying down on the table once during lessons" makes you feel that you are actually very HARDWORKING.

Okay, crap that, it's SO not true.

So, sleeping late is like turning in around 2 3 am and waking up like 6.30am, with a maximum of 3.5 hours of sleep.

That's not even half of the time you ae SUPPOSE to sleep.

Come to think of it, I use to sleep alot, and I mean ALOT.

Let's not talk about tonning outside, we will just start from school camps and chalets.

HELLO, I'M FIRST IN THE LINE TO FALL ON THE BED AND START SNORING.

And well of course, I miss out most of the fun.

But... All these have CHANGED.

For the worse or better? I guess more of the former?

WHO CARES.

Can anyone tell me why?

It's unhealthy but... It seems better, in a way or another.

Anyway, I don't have the intention to change it.

Somehow, I think this post is a little bit useless.

prepare

2009-12-04T21:19:00.002+08:00

When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire.

I'm so tempted to shift to tumblr.

brainwash

2009-12-03T17:22:00.001+08:00

This thing has to end.

But in the first place, it hasn't even started yet.

It's bugging me, I don't know why.

I need to PLAY.

best be on my way out

2009-12-01T22:50:00.001+08:00

My life is so screwed now,

nothing seems to please me these days.

I hate that.

And baby your love is gonna change me

2009-11-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

The sun was awesome today, just that the mood was not right.

If I can just have my tanning oil w me just now everything will be so much better.

GAHHHHHHHHHH.

Anyway, lunch at Anchorpoint I LOVEEEEEEE.

When can the whole clique just go out againnnnnnn.

They make me forget alot of things, especially unpleasant ones.

OH OH OH,

JOEY! WO YAO SUNTAN!!!!!!!

WHEN WHEN WHENNNNNNNNNN :o

Got home wanting to do my hmwk, but oh well...

I gave in to ms, heeeeeeeeeeeh.

Thanks to those who've helped me!

*hugggssss*

I'm shagged, my eyes are bloodshot.

I'm sleeping.

Tough day ahead, dlesssss everyone.

QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM

2009-11-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

FUCK TYPO.

it goes on

2009-11-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

I was wrong.

I'm still wrong.

I'm gonna be wrong.

at this particular moment

2009-11-20T22:08:00.001+08:00

I really wished Subway is open 24/7.

Subway Melt + Cookies + 100plus

You see,

I plan to play ms until I fall asleep on my lappy.

YEAH, I'M SERIOUS.

karma

2009-11-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

Revenge is sweet, but retribution is sweeter.

I AM SO

2009-11-17T21:21:00.001+08:00

SHAGGED.

Still need to prepare my COMT zzzzzz.

Wednesday sucksssssssss.

BOOO.

I can't wait

2009-11-15T17:57:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for my breaks to come,

I can't wait for the last day of 2009.

And hopefully my mum can let me stay out late THIS time.

Or maybe, for the whole night.

Argh, I know it's very immature to say this BUT,

I'm not young anymore.

I got friends too, ya know?

Sometimes, I really don't understand why can't I be like others.

SIGH.

Anyways.

So now I'm gonna work real hard for my CT,

show my mum I've been studying.

And get a favour back.

YEAH, SHALL DO THAT.

I need a hair cut, I'm sick and tired of my screwed up hair.

I want your love, I want your revenge

2009-11-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

I got this sudden urge to go shopping.

I need some ripped jeans, totally sexy.

chillllllllli ftw

2009-11-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

Okay I talked to Siting alr HAHAHAHA :D

School start at 11am tmr YAYYYY

Can't wait for weekends, can't wait for holidays

Okay TV time byeeeeee

Bro last paper tmr, then after that he can chiong maple w me!

YAYYYYYYYY

you should just go and die

2009-11-12T07:44:00.006+08:00

SITING 你在哪里?!?!?!

I NEED YOUUUUUUU ):

gray

2009-11-11T20:46:00.003+08:00

Say hello!

When people tell you that you suck,

don't get angry.

Cos' it's the truth, that's just YOU.

Some people just tend to forget all the good things people had done for her.

She don't appreciate, and instead, turn around and just shoot back at you.

These people are the worst.

How I miss chatting with Anna.

I love you babyyyyy. :D

bad romance

2009-11-09T21:45:00.001+08:00

I need peace.

red cheeks and drunkkkkkk

2009-11-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Learn to be humble,

this way you're gonna get through your life longer.

Stop thinking that you are always the better one,

when the fact is, YOU ARE NOT.

So, shut up, bitch.

your heart beats like an engine

2009-11-05T13:14:00.003+08:00

Not every moment is worth cherishing,

but don't ever miss it.

THIS SUCKS

2009-11-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

You see, there's no sun recently and I'm dying to get tan,

YES, I HATE FAIR SKIN.

Stupid bio clock is screwing up my sleeping time,

YES I'M SLEEP-DEPRIVED.

I ain't got a clue on what my APS teacher is talking about,

YES, IT'S BAD, I KNOW, SO SHUT UP.

This stupid feeling isn't going away,

YES, WAYYY TORTURING.

But yes, here I am, still, taking everything on my shoulders.

I'm. Going. To. Tackle. All. These. One. By. One.

WITHOUT FAIL.

Even though I think the last one it's a little impossible.

SIGHHH.

Must be my down period this year, expecting it anyway.

Life sucks.

Okay well, at least for this current period of time?

automatic

2009-11-01T23:17:00.001+08:00

nothing is ever easy;

this life is so sick.

SUNNY SIDE UP! :D

2009-10-30T22:02:00.003+08:00

And that is why,

I'm able to smile whenever I look back into my life. (:

STOP

2009-10-25T17:29:00.002+08:00

Mum's not working tmr.

And how I wish I don't have to go to school tmr.

YEAH, FAT HOPE.

it doesn't matter

2009-10-22T21:29:00.002+08:00

I knew this feeling was never right, but here I am putting up this stupid fight.

I never want this feeling to come this fast, but too late, it's not gonna pass.

Why, do you have make me go through this unreasonable ride.

IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU YOU YOU.

I don't know what should I do now.

BWAH. :S

Okay byebye, sorry just ranting abit, don't ask why please.

And please don't come kaypo and give me comments, I don't need it, I know what I'm doing.

said what you wanted alr?! then stfu.

2009-10-15T23:29:00.003+08:00

you meant what you said, so stop finding excuses to cover up when people start shooting you, it will just make you look more hypocritical.

I shall...

2009-10-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

Blog.

LOL.

"Like omg! she's blogging!"

Cut it out, I love blogging, but the bug was on vacation hahaha.

Anyway, met up with some bball mates today!

There were jo jy ys yp and me. Okay, 5 ppl, some couldn't make it and some had emergencies. Oh well, but I guess, no Korean food next time? Hahaha! But some did enjoy like me. LOL LOL LOL. So hang around FEP to find something, and we were noisy, really noisy. I swear I miss those times, playing and ka chiaoing ppl on the streets. Like you know, getting high just being with them hahaha!

Sat down outside Carls' Junior and yp did her homework. Ys left halfway and we chatted alot of crap. =.= And Jo! I will bring my kids there de, I was joking when I said won't! Put my kids there I don't have to worry! Hahaha, scared you angry. :S Jiayou jiayou and see you in NP kayyyyyyy, YS you too!!!! Really wish more of my close friends are in NP. :S Hope you guys come and we can have lunch tgt MUAHAHAHA.

Okay, I'm feeling sleepy now but I'm still contemplating if I should play maple. HAHAHA, whatever, I'm out.

CO2!

2009-10-13T14:37:00.003+08:00

ME PLAYING DRY ICE! HAHAHA :D

(Ignore the convo between me and my boss, just watch me play, eat and blow the CO2! :D)

kind souls, anyone?

2009-10-13T00:50:00.003+08:00

Come on, it's only 208SGD... :3

are you finished?!

2009-10-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

How contradicting life is huh.

put your lips on my mouth

2009-10-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

If I walk, would you run? If I stop, would you come?

finally, your turn!

2009-09-27T14:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY

LIM JIAYAN!

This post came a little late cos' I was lazy to log in to blogger. LOL. Anyhoo, enjoy your birthday and I'll give you your present very soon okay. HAHAHAHA. Remain difficult to get angry kay! Hahaha, 爱死你了! :D

point form blogging is cool, right? :D

2009-09-21T23:02:00.004+08:00

I had mac breakfast today
ys told me to jump off the building
n.u.m should just get more tank tops
no more 50%
very sad for me and ys
arcade was fun, even though two games only
me and jo tried to destroy the machine
Sentosa was awesome today
Cheeks like red tomatoes, I like
but no tanned skin, that's the sad part
Dinner was awesome today, love spicy food
I think * are sickos
I've been playing maple like *&^%$#@!
work and bball trg tmr yay
I wanna go sentosa again
I want bball girls chalet
many smile at me for wrong reasons today
waht I meant is random ppl I do not know
I wonder what's happening
weird but fun day (Y)
and no, I dont have xing ge kay
ROAR

so so so so so so so

2009-09-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

addictive

OH FUCK

2009-09-13T01:15:00.001+08:00

I'm craving for pepper lunch again when I just had it on Friday.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sleep greentothetango, sleep

2009-09-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

You know, somehow... I don't have the feel to blog.

The Proposal (Y)

2009-08-31T21:54:00.003+08:00

I love today!

I'm not gonna elaborate much cos' I'm freaking tired. Was out for the whole day.

Sooo, met up with sw @ QWSS around 0930. Straight away go technical block. :D Then went to watch performance, mingled around. Alot of them changed so much! Hahaha, miss alot of them too. :D Okay, so, after concert, went technical block again and chatted more.

Hawker for lunch. How I miss hawker food. Then BTP for poooooooooool! :D All 8 of us turned up! That's why I love today! :D (Siting's mind is with us) Pooled till about 1530 then headed Tiong Bahru for Dinner and movie! The Proposal ftw! Ahhhhh, jy talked so much that I missed quite alot of parts. :s Then mrt-ed home.

I wonder what I'm gonna do tmr. LOL.

Oh yeah! There's this person who was trying to tell me to change myself when he is like... No where better? LOL. Just reading from my Twitter he can sum up what I did. Like WOW, I'm impressed. He don't even know a thing he come and lecture me leh, unreasonable. Jumping conclusions, always. Pampered kids are like that I guess? And I can't believe I was kind enough to play along with this kid. HAHAHA, but fun anyway, to see how stupid he is. =x

There's a saying:

狗改不了吃屎

So right, so right.

hypnotised mesmerised

2009-08-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

Tmr seems fun.

Provided everything goes smoothly. LOL. Okay, at least I get to see alot other people tmr!

Today was hectic. Basically because I was doing something I don't really like, yj sw should know. I mean all of us were stuck for so many timesssssssss. x( I DON'T LIKE.

I'm just very looking forward to tmr. I don't know the hell why.

Turning in, goodnight! :D

time tells, shut as well

2009-08-29T22:03:00.005+08:00

Soooooooooo, hi.

Bball today was (Y), as usual. Okay, so when was bball not (Y)? HAHAHA. But was playing super suckishly cos' was tired and lacking of sleep. I slept at 12+ near to 1am and woke up at 8+am cos' I told them I'll be there at 9+am. HAHAHA.

We came up with some plans but since some of us are working, gotta plan well. :S How I wish I can don't work. Leaving my next week free cos' I wanna enjoy. I wonder how am I gonna survive if I'm working full time.

GAH.

ANCHORPOINT FOR SUBWAYYYYYYYY.

*more (Y)*

Subway melt still rock kay, and I ordered footlong. Don't get me wrong, cos' we're sharing. HAHAHA. Omg, I'm still craving for subway cookie (check my tweet). Okay, we talked alot, mostly random stuffs, I don't know how it started but I think it's a very rare topic, well, at least among us. HAHAHAHA.

And, when the fuck can I stop spending money?

I'm trying to find people to watch movie with me but seems like those who are interested are either still schooling if not unavailable.

BOOOOOOOO, nvm. I shall see on Monday. Grab all the people I can to go!

Okay, I think this part of the post is very contradicting. And I'm so gonna go Holland Grove Road anytime next week. Shall get my Daddy to fetch me there and back.

MUAHAHAHA.

I'm bored without my lappy. And fyi, my lappy crashed and I haven't send it for repair yet cos'... I don't know how to get there, I need Daddy. :D

I'm thinking of privating my Twitter.

No? Yes?

sky's falling

2009-08-28T16:22:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I'm tidying my house.

Okay, my room to be precise.

HAHAHAHA.

WO AI HOLIDAYS

2009-08-27T22:15:00.003+08:00

YAY, I love today cos I finish my exams. :D

And I met Steph on my way to school, (Y) sign! HAHAHA, I miss this bitch larhs. ): Cos' you know, sky was so dull whole day, no Sun, then is like, seeing someone you know on the bus on a typical Thursday is just so fucking rare. HAHAHA.

Then exam room I met Clifton. HAHAHA, cute as ever, hahaha! Caught up with him a little bit and he theougt we taking same paper, hahaha! So cute right, I know I know.

Then JP with Lele, she walk until leg cramp. =.= Take care okay, wo qin ai de xiao mei mei. LOL LOL LOL. Re-watching Inuyasha, really really can't wait for Final Act. October faster comeeeee!

Should I go back QSS on Monday? It's been a long time since I've chatted with Mr Neo. HAHAHA, our papa. :D But really, he resembles my Daddy (real one).

Okay, can sleep in tmr.

BYE.

THIS IS AWFUL.

2009-08-26T15:10:00.001+08:00

TODAY'S PAPER:

BIG THUMB'S UP

(Y)

HAHAHA, bye.

seventeen seventeen seventeen

2009-08-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY YANJUN!

Like finally, right? Tsktsk. :P

All the best in everything kay! :D

and not forgetting to give each other encouragement and support from time to time!

HAHAHA,

你加油我，我加油你！

HAHAHA! 一起加油吧！

P/S: Don't so emo also larhs, hahaha! CHEERS! :D

- titleless -

2009-08-25T12:29:00.001+08:00

So yeah, hi.

I'm pissed.

I need t put 200% effort into my next paper,

screwed up today's.

Okay, whatever, it's a boring post anyway.

BYE.

a year older

2009-08-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY LOKKKKKK!

Good luck and all the best for this year kay,

hope to see you around in the same campus. HAHAHA.

P/S: Your present, belated kay. HAHAHA. I never go out recently. =.=

HAPPY MUGGING FOR PRELIMS/ O LVLS!

Omg, it's exam alr?!

2009-08-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I would like to urge all my loyal readers to please click on my nuffnang ads whenever there's any kay! I wanna earn $$. LOL. I still got about 46 bucks to go before I get paid yeah.

THANK A BUNCH IN ADVANCE! :D

So, I went school for an hour plus and back home again. Then last minute decision for The Hangover with cuzzie. 4/5 stars kay, hahaha. Read my twitter for more info.

So, I guess intense studying starts tmr?! I'm leaving my blog to rot for the whole of next week but I'll be updating my twitter! :D I'm gonna find some interesting stuffs for my loyal readers to read while this blog is rotting way into it's core. :D

Time to sleep, my eyes are hurting. Burhbye.

HOW TRUE?

2009-08-11T20:19:00.003+08:00

So, I just went to school for a fucking test that I'm 100% sure of flunking it. And we were told, WE CAN GO HOME. It was mofo 10+am okayyyyy. Went canteen 2 for some bites with my foursome and some guys from the class.

Headed for pool along with zs tony ernie eugene.

I LOVE POOL. :D

Lunch at PizzaHut, service was horrendous. :/

But but but, I manage to complain and pour everything out, gossip a little as well, I love gatherings like this. :D And eubro got alot of lame thinkings. =.=

*sorry, I'm going back to my DMC walkthrough on Youtube*

8.49pm Kay, fine, I shall blog finish first. DMC is soooo tempting. LOL LOL LOL. :D Then me sl yuli and eubro went for Islang Creamery @ Serene Centre. COOKIES AND CREAM IS THE BOMBXZXZ. BIG CHUNKY COOKIE LIKE OMFGGGGGG, LIKE HEAVEN KAY. LOL, I like the burnt caramel too. Eubro even took a picture of it. =.=

Okay, back to my DMC, tata for now!

wo yao shaker friessss

2009-08-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

I'm so gonna get Mac's breakfast on Wednesday morning.

've been craving it since this morning. (x Hotcakes or Big Breakfast? Griddles? I think I should buy all eh?! HAHAHAHA.

Think I'm gonna burn oil again, I just don't have this thing with lipids, or in other words, FATS. I alr flunk one test, please don't make me flunk another one. :S

This week is slacky, with ony 2 days of school, I need to find something productive to do. Other than my daily workouts, I think nothing seems productive? LOL LOL LOL. I wanna go T111111111, YULIIIIIIIII. :S

Okay, I'm out, bye!

963

2009-08-09T18:27:00.003+08:00

INUYASHA: THE FINAL ACT IS COMING BACK THIS FALL!

:DDDDDDD

Inuyasha fans, BEWARE!

LIKE OMFG, I'm so high now. HAHAHA, can't wait can't wait can't wait! :D I've known many Inuyasha fans in my social circle, I bet they are excited too. :D

OKAY, BYE.

heart don't fail me now

2009-08-08T22:47:00.002+08:00

Bball was awesome today.

(Y)

As for the rest of the day, it's normal compared to any other days. BORING, LETHARGIC, SLEEPY, STUCK AT HOME... Seriously, I needa get a life.

Anyhoo, major exams are coming. Can't wait for everything to be over. New modules, new subjects, start everything new. Gonna plan my days well for next sem, this sem has been a total disaster for me.

Tmr is... National's Day. I'm not celebrating, but I love you Singapore. LOL. :D

I guess I'm gonna sleep now, feeling so *&^%$#@! right now. Gonna study hard tmr for my quiz, it's chemistry!

BYE.

P/S: Happy birthday Jeanne!

P/SS: Jumping conclusions, as always.

tootssssss

2009-08-05T09:19:00.002+08:00

let bygones be bygones,

I realised that the stuffs going on between us is causing some other impacts.

but I really hope we can be good friends again.

I wanna play basketball

2009-08-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

my only way to find out why.

just like being true to your inner child

2009-08-04T16:02:00.004+08:00

~~I don't see the reason why I have to do all these.~~

Fine, my challenge.

extreme makeover

2009-08-02T17:05:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to re-furnish my home.

:DDDDDD

revision revision revision

2009-08-02T10:09:00.002+08:00

Meeting yj sw later, finally after so long! Can't wait can't wait. :D

But...

My breakfast isn't home yet...

editor in the making

2009-08-01T16:24:00.002+08:00

So many things to do, so little time. ): Early in the morning travelled all the way to ICA building for my bro's passport. After that CHINATOWN for lunch.

Bought KOI again. :D

Well, I need it to do my work and stuffssssssss. Next week full of tests quizzes tests quizzes tests quizzes. Can't wait for holidays, that's when my $$ starts coming in. :p

Going IKEA later, then I can pop by Queensway too, for my... YEAH.

BYE.

still tied down by projects

2009-07-30T18:10:00.002+08:00

I HATE PROJECTS, I REALLY DO. Just don't get it why do I have to stuck with * for group projects. Haissssssssssssssssssssssss. School's off tmr btw, happy happy girl. :D Imma craving for sobaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Shall drag my cousin to Waraku again. HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm hungry. :S

Kay, quiz was (Y) on tuesday, I completed it like within 1/2 an hour. Not a good sign though, accord to my lecturer. Hmmmm hmmmm, I think I'm gonna sleep at 8pm tonight. And tmr project meeting! Cannot go Ryan's house for mahjong! My hand itching like some bitch kay, LOL LOL LOL.

HAHAAHAHAHAHHAHA, enough of crapping.

BYE.

Harry Potter FTW!!!

2009-07-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

Just got home from movie.

WHO SAID HARRY POTTER WAS BORING?! WHO WHO WHO. I think its okay larhs, after all, this book doesn't really have much climax whatttttt.

=.=

But the part where Snape said he was the half blood prince was... RANDOM. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA. AND AND AND, Ron or should I say Rupert Grint has a fuck face. HAHHA, talk about love potion. LOL.

Imma going to take a nap till 2am, and start doing my stuff from there. Meeting in the morning. GOSHHHHHH.

BYE.

hide inside

2009-07-27T21:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO.

Lab test went kinda well. AM HAPPY. (: And we've got hints on our OBC lab test.

YAYYYYYY, that's what you get when... :D

*plays the song by Paramore*

So, my life currently, at this particular moment is: project bio project bio project bio project bio project bio (check out my Twitter too). I think I'm burning a little oil tonight, and I'm suppose to catch an evening movie tmr. HOW TO SURVIV LIKE THAT. BWAH, I think this is the suckiest period of my life. I hate projects, I really do.

...

WHATEVER.

And I only started my bio like 15 minutes ago cos I was on projects. Yes, fuck projects. On a lighter note, this week is the presentation! After that everything will be over. OVER OVER OVER.

I think I'm having a little mental breakdown here. Who cares anyway, I'm out.

BYE.

wtfuckkkkkkkkkk

2009-07-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

am so gonna screw my lab test tmr

I'm not studying

oh, and I'm on Twitter yay

finally, going to school

2009-07-26T13:23:00.002+08:00

and I'm having lab test tmr

fuck life

_l_

SURVEY SURVEY SURVEY

2009-07-25T19:34:00.003+08:00

CLICK HERE FOR SURVEY

Help me will you my dear loyal readers?

I'll be sending out emails as well.

I can go to an extent of calling everyone on my contact list.

I mean what I said.

Okay, maybe not everyone.

Some are just outdated numbers, some I don't really know them but they exist in my list I don't know the hell why and some just... not worth calling.

Oh well, do help please.

TYVM. :D

4 solid hours and still going on

2009-07-25T15:28:00.003+08:00

I typed so many stuffs but I just backspace it.

BYE, BACK TO BIO.

BWAHHHHHHHH

2009-07-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

I'm hungry. ):

I think I shall cook instant noodles later.

And shitxzxzx, I lost touch on my plannings after stucking at home for one week. Got so many things coming up the following week. Ahhhhhhhhh, more time please. ):

AND I SHALL LOCK MYSELF IN THE ROOM TMR TO STUDY. OR ANYONE HAVING STUDYING SESSION? PLEASE SMS ME. (Yanjunnnnnnnnnn, you know what I want. HAHAHA)

BYE.

IT'S YOUR DAY

2009-07-24T13:49:00.002+08:00

You know what I'm here for, HAHAHAHA.

CHAI SITING!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! :D

Come back soon, please?! I miss laughing at our own jokes and crapping for hours.

Love ya bitch. :D

(I wanna post the face I sent to you via MMS, but I cannot find, suan liao. HAHAHA)

17 years old alr! OLD ALR LARHS, BOOOOOOO.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

IT'S BACK.

2009-07-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

OMF OMF OMF,

McDonald's shaker fries is back.

WHY DO THEY HAVE TO COME AT A TIME LIKE THIS?

HUH HUH HUH??????

I can't eat I can't eat I can't eat.

I need to study.

MOTIVATION PLEASE.

Should I go twitter?!

AHA AHA AHA

2009-07-23T11:58:00.003+08:00

I'm addicted to McFly's "All About You" for no fucking reason

HAHAHAHAHA

So like... Hi??? Sorry for MIA-ing for so long, wasn't feeling very well eh, heh hehh. So, doc gave me a 7 day MC. The "little break" I asked for in one of my previous post.

GRANTED. :D

I guess alot of people don't believe I got a 7 day MC. Nvm, I believe can alr. LOL LOL LOL.

Sooooooo, I missed Sw's celebration. Hmmmmm. And according to them, the cake was a fuckin huge disappointment.

I SHALL NVR TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TO BEDOK FOR A CAKE ANYMORE.

I guess I got loads to catch up with my school stuffsssss.

And, I think I can get my teacher to fail me for one of the projects. I'm not contributing. I'm not contributing. I'm not contributing.

GUILTY. :S

But I'm doing my best to get my groupmates to throw me stuffs to do.

GWAHHHHH.

This one week MC came at a wrong time eh. Hmm Hmm.

I wanna play bball I wanna play bball I wanna play bball. I wanna watch Harry Potter too, next tues. :D And and and, class is having mahjong session at Ryan's house, I came up with that idea, but I cmi, why like that?!?!?!?! SIAN 1/2.

And, my dear Miss Chai bday is like, tmr?!?!?! HAHAHA.

Sorry bitch, I didnt manage to get your present cos of my flu.

My fever hit your record arhs! HAHAHAHA.

39.3. *grins*

You will get your present when you come back sg next time.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Tmr the wish you.

Okay, I needa cook lunch now, very hungry. :x

BYE

SOMEONE'S SEVENTEEN!

2009-07-18T22:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAY SINWEI! :D

17 17 17 17

Old right, but no worries,

I'm older. =.=

Love you loads kay. :D

4 years and still going strong. :D

ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING!

AND COOK FOR ALL OF US SOMEDAY.

__________

time for a little change of my blogskin. white background coming. :D

wo ai m jiangxzxzx

2009-07-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

LOL japanese mahjong is interesting...

and complicated

so not right

2009-07-16T19:47:00.001+08:00

Imma gonna read up on yoga and learn how to meditate

I MEAN IT

SIAN 1/2

2009-07-15T19:24:00.003+08:00

so like daddy is going Maldives at the end of this month if not beginning of next month

I WANNA GO. ):

and tmr's my mum's bday yayy

P/S: Happy Birthday Seeleng!

zombie

2009-07-14T23:11:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden I felt that 24hrs a day is not enough.

On the other hand, I wished the day will end ask quickly as I asked for it.

Maybe I need a little break from everything.

pink nails

2009-07-13T17:05:00.001+08:00

HOW I WISH THERE'S LION KING 4

serious now

2009-07-12T16:38:00.004+08:00

best companion when you are studying. :D

I watched Mulan II, Pocahontas I & II and Lion King I & II ytd.

No breaks in between, HAHAHAA

SIMBA SO HANDSOME. XD

BYE, BIO IS CALLING ME.

I need retail therepy, pronto.

2009-07-11T13:08:00.001+08:00

I want those plimsoles from Topshop!!!

Sitinggg! Come back shop with me larhhhhhhhhhs.

HAHAHAHA

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

2009-07-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

TODAY (10th July) WAS AWESOME.

SUPPER WAS GREAT, BUT FATTENING.

HAHAHAHAHA

AND STEPH, I LIKE THE COLOUR OF YOUR SHIRT. :D

PHOTOS CLICK

HERE

Pardon me, bad hair day, so I look super screwed.

OLEY LEY OLAH LAH

2009-07-09T22:18:00.001+08:00

OMF OMF OMF, I PASSED BIO

yay

see you in 6 (LONG) mths time

2009-07-08T21:46:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAA BYE BITCH ):

WILL MISS YOU BADLY BADLY BADLY.

And I wore sexy red socks for dance today yay

Anyway, just some everday-life stuff,

"When you keep your mouth tightly shut, nobody will ever understand what the fuck you are trying to get at; So, speak up."

sec3 life sec4 life sec3 life sec4 life

2009-07-07T21:49:00.005+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I. Miss. Sec. 3. And. 4. Life.

Just to sum up everything,

TODAY WAS BLOODY AWESOME.

Love you girls loads, I mean like loads.

HAHAHAHA
♥

P/S: Happy 17th Birthday Cheeying! :D

Always stay happy and all the best in everything my dear cousin, hahaha! x333

I don't like sundays

2009-07-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

LOL I just realise got another idiot thinks I'm writing about him too.

HAHAHA BYE

INPH INPH INPH

big grins

2009-07-05T11:10:00.003+08:00

So, didn't update much yesterday cos' I was dead tired. Okay, went Expo to meet up with Jo Jy St Sw and Ys for some SALES. I love sales, I really do. :D Bought only a few stuffs though, main point was to help Sw get her formal wear. Then off to Suntec to meet Anna. :DDDDD Before that had ice cream from Marvelous Cream (Y)(Y)(Y)! I like Jo's Chocolate Caramel Twist! Me ans Sw had some Chocolate Sienne which is also mouth watering. Cos' ya know, chocolates. I wanna eat again. RAWRRRRR. Then walked around at Suntec, went topshop and bought a top cos' it was cheap. HAHAHA. Then MRT-ed to orchard cos' we wanna go far east. Was playing Anna's iTouch all the way and I knocked into ppl alot of times. :S Now I'm thinking if I should sell my nano to get iTouch. Hmmmmmmm.

Didn' manage to find my formal wear. Or should I say that I wasn't in the mood to look for formal wear. HAHAHA. Then bused to Chinatown to meet up with Mr Tay for steamboat! Yay yay yay but I ate fucking loads yesterday. Guilty. :S So fun having all but 1 around (Jiayannnnnn! ]:) Now waiting for Mr Tay to upload photos. They took one picture of me which looks freaking fat. LOL LOL LOL. Now I know how I'll look like when I'm plump up. HAHAHAHA. Walked to Clark Quay to slack around white St went home. Had ice cream again, wtf. Sin sin sin sin. Jo tempted me. HAHAHA. I need to buy a weighing machine soon. HAHAHAHA. Then cabby home with Anna. :D

Okay, I'm lazy to go on. I'm thinkig if I should go out today. Or stay at home study? Hmmmmmm.

(Y)

2009-07-05T00:11:00.004+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME.

(Y)

Oh, yesterday I mean.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ohhhh, I guess I need to improve on my typing huh? Some people (if you think is you, is you. If you think you are not, I can only say you are damn BHB) thinks that Imma talking about him/her, but the fact is I was referring to somebody else. You know, is all this guilty conscious thing going around his/her mind. And apparently, this person doesn't understand me that well as he/she thinks he/she does. Hmmmmm. Anyway, please refer to my previous post for amendments, thank you. (: Come on, pot calling kettle black. Boooooooooooo, just another insult to the world. Hais, why do these disgusting people co-exist in such lovely world? Oh well... shameful shameful shameful.

CAN I HAVE A REGULAR SPRING ONION PLEASE HAHAHAHA

2009-07-03T21:46:00.010+08:00

My title is classic. LOL LOL LOL (inside). And I swear all the sales personnel in all the shops we went were all smiling to themselves. And, I dripped saliva on st shoes. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I can't stop laughing. LOL LOL LOL. Met a bunch of uncivilised boys on the way home. Eavedropping and imitating, so uneducational, pukes. Only manage to buy two tops and one accessory. Oh well, so much for the GSS craze.

Shopping again tmr + dinner. Yay yay yay. Anyhooooooo, I BOUGHT MACARONS. YAY, BAKERZIN IS HAVING OFFER 90cents for one MACARON! WTFFFFFFF. After I finish my 7 pieces here I'm gonna go back again, maybe next week or maybe tmr. WHO KNOWS. :D

____________

FOR ONE PERSON: Some coward just don't have the guts to look at me long enough for me to gin him. Oh well, I can't blame him, it's his nature for being so cowardly.

[AND FOR ANOTHER PERSON: Stop sending me songs and shit stuff like that. Frankly speaking, most of the songs he sent me is rotting in my folders. I'm deleting them anyway. Oh, you can go to your mother and cry now. ] -ONLY THIS PART NOT FOR YOU LARHS WTF. CLEAR ENOUGH ALR ANOT?!?! SEE YOU GOT ANYMORE THINGS TO COME AND TALK COCK WITH ME ANOT. SAYING WHAT ' I ALSO NEVER DO THIS AND THAT BLAH BLAH'. GUILTY CONSCIOUS THEN SAY LARHS. _l_

So mother fucker, look who's talking. HAHAHA.

IF you think I'm making it all up saying that at first place tha Imma talking about you for everything above, I got nothing to say also larhs horhs, cos' I can't stop a person from thinking too much ya know. Uh huhhhhhh.

YOU ARE A JOKE. Don't make a fool of yourself, seriously.

- OMG, I didn't know I can scold somemore so neatly in my blog. I find it very nice. :D -

OH NO,

2009-07-02T22:20:00.001+08:00

I haven't study a shit for today yet.

Jialat jialat jialat

HELLO CHAI SITING HAHAHA

2009-07-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome cos' I finally get to meet Siting. I always have the urge to go her house whenever my bus pass by her bus stop. HAHAHAHAHA. So after my S&W rushed down to GWC to meet up with sw jo ys and st, had pepper lunch for dinner. Yj came at around I-don't-know-what-time. LOL LOL LOL. Then walked around and bought a pair of iPanama havaianas which was on SALES. Yes, sales. Shopping spree on Saturday with st sw ys and dinner. :D Yay yay yay.

I shall go do my tut now, had a hard time finishing this morning. And I freakingly cabbed to school cos' I was... Well, late. HAHAHA, but whatever. I got a digusting grade for my CATS. Gotta to well for the current one and get A A A A A A A A A A A.

P/S: I hate attention seekers, they can't be anymore disgusting.

no surprise

2009-06-30T19:37:00.001+08:00

I forgot to take out my contacts before taking my nap LOL LOL LOL

Now I have bloodshot eyes

more shopping, less school please.

2009-06-29T20:43:00.003+08:00

I went around digging my fridge cupboard pots pans bag plastic bags but I found nothing that I can eat.

Junk food at a time like this, how sinful.

nope, no more late night sleeps.

2009-06-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

Projects just suck to the deepest core.

_l_

LOL LOL LOL

2009-06-27T21:16:00.002+08:00

My Dad, my mum and I have been talking about Michael Jackson ever since they came home.

LOL.

His songs are awsome actually.

(Y)

So like,

2009-06-25T19:44:00.002+08:00

hello?
I wanna blog properly but I just can't find that...
Mood or something along that line.
HAH.

Anyhoooooooo,
've been sick these few days.
And no, I didn't wanna go to the doctors,
is a nuisance.
And IF really I was infected with H1N1,
I can forget about going out freely etc.

On a lighter note,
My dear Miss Chai Siting is finally coming back.
*THREE CHEEEEEEEEEEERS*
Call me anytime,
I'll pon school to go shopping with you.
HAHAHA.
Sorry, but I'm joking. =.=

I've been craving for Macarons since ytd afternoon.
Can anyone tell me where to get awesome macarons?!?!?!?!
There's so many places I wanna go,
but school's opening soon.
Dreading school. :s
I need to do some studying to get my mind back on track.
Seriously some hardcore studying.
Blah blah blah...

I needa find some new source of entertainment,
've been indulging myself with TV lately.
But TV is really... Boring.
Kay, whatever.

I think my 'pregnant' syndrome is back.
I'm adding another to stuff to my craving list.
Bye.

Macarons are...

2009-06-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

tempting.

Miss me?

2009-06-23T14:01:00.000+08:00

I'm craving for... Potatoes.

Life is a joke,

2009-06-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

AND SO ARE YOU.
neh neh ni poo poo.

P/S: credits to Joey! Or your shirt, to be precise. Hahaha. (:

HOME ALONE

2009-06-19T19:56:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking if I should make a wishlist...

But it's gonna be so long, HOW?